13.May.06

Tell Me Why

By BlackBolt

Tell me why all this happens so suddenly

Why can’t I leave these memories alone?

Why can’t they both stop fighting?

Please let me leave this world behind

Tell me why I suddenly get my wish to come true

Why can’t I make this feeling go away?

Why do I have everything but you?

I think back and wonder about you and my old life

Tell me why I see him and I feel happy

Why does he shine like a star in a dead night?

But I can’t tell him nor can I forget you

Why is this happening to me?

Why did this happen

Tell me now I need to know

I’m torn between him and you

Somebody help me, make these thoughts go away

Tell me why am I even here

Why am I happy here?

When I thought this could never happen

Somebody answer me, I need to know

Tell me why I see you as a hero

Why do you risk your life to save me?

When I have done nothing for you

I want to repay you but you always say no

Tell me why I keep thinking about you and him

Get these thoughts out of my head

I can’t stand them anymore

Why oh please tell me the answer

Tell me why suddenly everything I wanted is here

When I look around I don’t see you

I only see him smiling like he always does

Why do I smile back should I have ignored him?

Why do they stare at me and say I’m weird

I know they all hate me but he doesn’t mind what I am

I hear that stupid vermin whisper about me

I can’t take it anymore I’ve got to leave this place

Tell me why I sit outside and gaze at the stars looking for you

Then he comes outside just to comfort me

I want to be alone, knowing they all talk of me

Why can’t they understand, what I’ve been going through

His smile brings me peace and I know I can trust him

I wonder if he is the only one kind to me

I’m very tired now and I fell faint

Maybe after my rest I can get some answers

I see them both in my dreams

And yet I wonder which I should choose

A kind and gentle maximal

Or the man I loved on Earth

Why must I choose?

Tell me why