First
Unnamed
By:
Rebecca Anne Sinead Fahey-Leigh
Chapter
One
Boston
is “the walking city,” I’ve been told. A city where you can walk from one
end of it to another with relative ease.
More
like the city of the walking dead, whose nocturnal population is only bested in
the United States by New York and New Orleans. Believe me. I know what I’m
talking about. I’ve lived in Boston’s suburbs all my life and had traveled
to those other two cities since–
“Hsst!
Come on, girl! We’re nearly there! You know that you should be there when he
wakes up!”
“Quiet,
furball! I’m coming! Get your fur outta a bunch. You know that he
understands the meaning of showering after training!”
“Brat.”
–since
I had been brought into the nocturnal population by a certain someone. Mmm . . .
maybe I’d better start from the beginning.
I
was born precisely on the midnight between November 21st and 22nd,
in the middle of a rainstorm that flooded basements all over the area. People
could use their canoes in certain backyards, had they wished to. Or so I had
been told. All that matters is that I’ve never felt more alive than at night,
and particularly alive when thunder is crashing all around me. I guess that
I’m a creature of the night and of tempests by habit.
So
I was born and raised in Quincy, a fair-sized city south of Boston. I went to
the Della Chaiasa kindergarten, and then after that I attended the Lincoln
Hancock Elementary school until the fifth grade. Nothing serious had really
happened in those years, other than my getting a lung condition called asthma,
and had nearly died from it when I was four. Nothing interesting at all. Oh.
Does a ballet class at the age of four count . . . ? Hah, nah, didn’t think
so.
Upon
entering the sixth grade, I went to the Raey E. Sterling Middle School. The most
I remember about that time was being in the drama club in the sixth and seventh
grades, and in the eighth grade, participating in the talent show by singing two
Celine Dion songs. Typical sort of thing, y’know? Especially for a kid who
likes singing as a hobby.
Then
I entered high school. I didn’t want to go to Quincy High, where all the other
kinds were going, being another face in another crowd. So I applied to a
regional agricultural school in Walpole, a town almost thirty miles away. I was
one in a class of only ninety-seven by the time of graduation. I had been a
singer on a CD in my Junior year and a participant in the talent show for both
Junior and Senior years. Oh. And I majored in Natural Resources, for all the
good that it had done me. Then again, I’ve always been a sort of outdoorsey
kinda girl.
Once
out of high school, I worked, planning to save up for college for a year. Then
I’d end up working during college once I got there.
But
that never happened.
It
all started when I found a guy. You know, the typical gorgeous kinda guy with
the wavy, gelled hair and perfect eyes who you thought would never give
you the time of day. That seemed to all be proved wrong, when, in fact, he
turned around while I was at the South Shore Plaza, waiting in line for Master
Wok, and said, “So. What did you want?”
“Excuse
me?”
His
close-lipped smile was charming, to say the least, and he seemed to be used to
the confusion I was giving him. “I meant for food. My treat.”
I
smiled back, seeing that he was only being kind. “Oh, I’m sorry. I’m fine.
I can pay myself.”
“But
where’s the fun in that?”
Giving
him a look, I asked, “So you just here to pick some girl up?”
“Not
really ‘some’ girl, but instead ‘the’ girl. And I’m not trying.”
“So
you think that’s me, and you think that I’m going to A: believe you, or B:
allow myself to accept that you are not trying?”
“No.
I know that it’s you I’ve been looking for, and I expect you not to
believe me. Allow me to explain and convince you over dinner?”
Watching
his brown eyes, looking past the liquid kindness, I sighed and said back,
“Fine. General’s Chicken with white rice and two chicken fingers. Large
Coke.”
His
grin of happiness caused me to notice his canines.
Sharp
and slightly longer than normal.
I
hope that they’re fake, like the ones sold at Hot Topic.
I
managed to get to the “bathroom,” instead catching a friend’s eye and
indicating the general area. She followed me after a moment, and I told her
about what had just happened. She blinked at me. “You don’t usually let just
some guy buy you something like that.”
“I
know.”
“Theo
is watching your food, just in case.”
“Thanks.
So what do you think?”
“Dunno.
But you go anywhere, we’ll follow you from a distance.”
“Gotcha.
Now wait a few moments so that it doesn’t look like a meeting.” Leaving her,
I walked back out to seem to “accidentally” bump into my friend Theo. He
smiled as I asked, “What are you doing here?”
“Oh,
you know, just hanging out.”
“All
alone?”
“Nah.
I have a friend with me.”
“Cool,
cool. Anything interesting?”
He
snorted. “Yeah, right. This is a clear friendship.”
Very
slight emphasis on “clear.” Good. We’d done stuff like this, you know,
playing with words and meanings and all, since Freshman year. I smiled, and
said, “I have to get back to my food. I’ll see you later, maybe?”
“Like
you have a choice?”
“I
always have a choice, and don’t you forget it!”
I
was soon seated across a small table from the guy who had bought my dinner. He
watched me for a moment, then said, “My name is Doraen. In case you were
wondering. And you are Ara.”
“How
do you know.”
“I’ve
been watching you for a while. Suffice to say at least a year.”
I
sat back, not touching the food. “Why, then?”
“Because
you can help us.”
“Who’s
this ‘us’?”
Doraen
didn’t answer.
“I
won’t help you in whatever you want until I get answers, Doraen.”
He
nodded once. “Then you shall have them. All in due time, and not where we can
be overheard.”
“Then
tell me when I’ll get those answers.”
“Soon.
Tonight. Providing, of course, that your friends will allow you to be absent
from their company. This does not concern them.”
I
watched his eyes. They weren’t a nondescript brown as I had first thought.
They were golden-brown. The color of a wolf’s.
“What
are you.”
“Something
of a tool at times, yet generally an attendant.”
“For
whom.”
“And
what, you wish to also ask. That will be revealed, again, soon.”
I
asked no more, but instead stated, “Fine. But tell me what you are. If
you do not tell me, then I will not help you.”
“Now?”
“Now.”
“I
am lycanthrope. Caught the disease when young, so all I’ve known is this life.
I serve a vampiric master who is desperate enough to hire a human who can be
trained in the arts of assassination. One who can deceive the deceiver. This is
where you come in. I’ve watched over five possible people. Only you have the
proper qualification that sets you apart.”
“And
that is?”
“Your
voice.”
That
night, I was brought to the vampire. I had told my father that I was sleeping
over a friend’s house. Tch. Some friend. More like a bloodsucking fiend who
enjoys the presence of scantily-clad women. Isn’t that what all
vampires enjoyed? Lewd company of any sort?
The
moment I stepped foot within the Victorian house, a shadow came from nowhere,
squealing and reaching elongated, taloned fingers towards my throat. The
lycanthrope, Doraen, snarled and diverted the attack to a wall. The young
vampire grumbled, then hissed at him. “I’m hungry.”
“Stop
the innocent act, brat. Where’s our master?”
“Sleeping.”
“He
weakens.”
“Yeah,
he’s not to happy that you’re taking your sweet time on the assignment,
dog.”
“You
just try it. I’m stronger than you are twice over at this point.”
“You
wait until I get a snack!”
Doraen
snorted. “There isn’t a chance of that in the world. I belong to Fanarael,
and to him alone. I out-rank you. And you will not touch this girl,
either.”
“Awww,
but she’s cute! Not even a nibble?”
I
gave the kid vampire a dull look. “‘Nibble’ on me, kid, and I’ll snap
your fangs off.”
Paling
even more than I could have thought possible, the brat scampered to a door,
opened it, and disappeared. Doraen snickered. “That’s quite a threat you
made.”
“Bad
move, then?”
“Not
in the least. It will be Hyeth that will awaken Fanarael, and not us. That will
be in our favor.”
A
dull thud reached my ears. The sound of it made me instantly think of a
body being backhanded across a room, hitting the wall that brought to mind the
image that he who was doing the backhanding patted his hands off, smirking in
complete and clear fulfillment. It had that satisfied feel. Doraen’s smirk
widened wickedly. “As I said: in our favor. Come, now, I must placate him.”
I
followed the lycanthrope down, and found myself soon deeply under the house. A
groggy, pale man with long, perfectly straight platinum-blond hair turned and glared back at us, seeming to half-listen to
the whining boy-vampire before him. His pale, seemingly colorless eyes alighted
upon me, and with one motion, silenced Hyeth. “Who is the girl, Doraen.”
“Ara.
Fitting name for who she is to become, Master.”
“‘Goddess
of Destruction’? I would dare to hope so.” He walked closer, then reached
out to put one elegant hand upon my cheek. His fingers were cold. With a sigh,
he looked at Doraen. For a moment, he didn’t speak. With a second sigh he
looked at me, but he was talking to the werewolf. “You say that this is the
girl?”
“Yes,
master.”
“Pity,
then.”
“Master?”
“Rich
blood. No. I correct myself. Supernatural blood, and thus I would assume
that it is more nourishing than any blood I would have ever ingested.” He
leaned his face closer to mine, sniffed, then ran his fingers through my
waist-length curly black hair. Fanarael blinked, then said, “You are
untouched? Virgin?”
I
didn’t move. He had that kind of forced-gentleness and un-asked-for grace that
martial art masters have. But I answered. “Yeah.”
“Wonderful.
All the more alluring. Then I should have to ask you why you are virgin.”
“Never
got the chance, hope not to get the chance until I’m married.”
“Religious
belief?”
“That
too. I don’t want to deal with STIs.”
“Aah.
The dead have none.”
“Don’t
try it, fang-face. You’ll not like what I’ll do to you.”
“I
doubt that you can do much, youngling.”
“Doesn’t
mean that I won’t try.”
Movement
too fast for me to see pushed me up against a wall, one hand holding my wrists
above my head, the other resting on my abdomen, underneath my shirt. I did a
reverse-snort, seemed to gargle for a moment, then spat the loogie into his face
with a decided “I’ll do it again” look. With a blink, he released me, then
started laughing. It wasn’t mean laughter. It was genuine, surprised, kind laughter.
“Ara is your name. Ara. Goddess you are, it seems. One with a cool head.
Forgive me, Ara. It was a test to see what you would do. May I remind you that
it will not work upon the opponents that you will be against. It will infuriate
them only more, and that is not something that I would recommend.”
He
wiped the spit from his face with the inside of his sleeve, then smiled again
and indicated with a wide sweep of his arm for me to find a place. “Do make
yourself comfortable.”
“Why?”
“So
that you may hear me out with patience.”
I
blinked at him. “You haven’t fed yet.”
“I
guess that I shall have to wait.”
Nodding,
I sat on an old-fashioned couch, and wasn’t surprised when the vampire moved
me slightly so that he could lounge beside me, one hand resting upon my thigh,
just above my knee. “I have a nemesis, my dear, one that you are to seduce
into a position where you will be able to kill him.”
“How?”
I replied, not looking at him as I removed his hand from my leg, placing it upon
his own and patting it twice before putting a bit more space between us.
He
chuckled again, but sobered. “You are to be trained by an older assassin, one
like you, but too old to continue her work. She has been talking to me about a
replacement. I chose, through my diurnal eyes, my wolves, you and four other
females who have the traits I am looking for.”
“Your
puppy said that the difference between them and me is my voice. Explain that.”
“I
am willing to endure your cold shoulder and bad habits for the while, Ara, but
that will not continue. You will learn the rules around here soon enough.” He
smiled, patting my knee twice, getting me back for my removing his hand. He took
a moment to look into my eyes, taking stock, most likely, in what he saw there.
“And your voice is the key. You have what others have called an
angel’s voice. You sing with purity, which, for you, is not hard. It is
nature. That purity, sadly, I may never hear. It would kill me.”
I
leaned back against the back of the reclining couch, my back starting to ache
from sitting too straight. “Because of what you are.”
“Correct.
Oh. May I give you a nickname?”
“You
probably will whether I say so or not.”
His
chuckle was amused. “Feisty one, aren’t you. I shall think of a suitable
one. Now. As for your weaponry skills . . .”
I
awoke screaming three hours later.
Fanarael
was sitting at his desk, eyes wide and watching me. His cheeks had a healthy
flush to them, so I assumed that he had fed in those three hours. “Aaee,
mon amour! Are you all right?”
I
swallowed, then calmed my breathing down. “‘Mon amour’? Try again. I’ll
not answer.”
He
nodded, then replied, “I beg your forgiveness, then. Will you tell me what
your nightmare was about?”
“I
might.”
“I
could just peek into your mind . . .”
“I’m
hoping that my purity will drive you away.”
“Aah,
your cold nature stings me!”
I
gave him a blank stare. “I don’t tell my nightmares to the real ones.”
He
bowed slightly. “I am touched! But it may prove to be relevant to
the future.”
After
gathering my thoughts and thinking about how to word the dream, I stood. I paced
for a few moments, then replied, “A veiled figure was before me. She was
fighting something, but she fell, killed instantly by something I couldn’t
see. The thing on the other side of her saw me, and I saw him. Eyes . . .
the most chilling eyes that I have ever seen in my nightmares . . . They were so
cold that they burned, too. I couldn’t see his true shape, only wispy
edges.”
“Did
the eyes have color?”
“No.
Small black pupil in a white eye.”
Fanarael
nodded, and was about to speak, but . . . his face and eyes grew distant, and he
clutched at his chest, and started to fall over. I rushed to him, some part of
me oddly not wanting to see him hurt, and saw how his cheeks began to pale. Hie
eyes tried to focus upon me, but they couldn’t. I caught my breath, then
screamed, “Doraen! Doraen, get in here!”
The
oaken double doors flew open, and a strange half-wolf burst in, snarling. He
calmed the moment he saw his master, and then walked over, reaching down to
carefully lift the vampire. Doraen’s voice echoed through my head.
What
happened?
“I
don’t know! I woke up from a nightmare, he demanded kindly that I tell him,
and then all of a sudden he nearly fainted on me!”
He
hasn’t been feeding well lately.
“Gee,
I couldn’t tell.”
The
wolf-man sighed immensely, and carried Fanarael to the bed I had been previously
occupying, and laid him back. He needs blood.
“What?!
Woah-ho, don’t look at me, furball.”
Snorting
with a laugh, he replied, My blood, human. You are to remain untouched. He
has named you as his own, within this pack, and that if any other vampire
touches you . . . mmph. They shall
be dealt with accordingly. After saying this, he bit his wrist, and then
held the bleeding limb out to the vampire’s mouth. Instantly, Fanarael gripped
Doraen’s wrist and latched his mouth to the wound. After a little more than
five minutes, Doraen looked at me. He won’t let go.
I
reached over for Fanarael’s face, and rested my hands on his cheeks, guiding
his eyes to my own. He wouldn’t stop taking Doraen’s blood. I kissed his
forehead. Fanarael drew back, sighing deeply, peacefully. He laid back, then
curled upon his side, away from us. I looked at Doraen, who was backing away
slowly. Finally, he left the room, closing the doors. I went to Fanarael’s
other side, kneeling on the floor, and watching his face. The vampire reached
out to me, and I held his hand. “Your turn to tell me something.”
“Your
nightmare proved to be truth. My assassin is dead.”
“Something
else is hiding in your face.”
“She
could not speak. I laid heavy spells upon her so that she would never be able to
speak unless in my presence. I will not do that to you, as your voice is
needed.” He sighed. “But the vampire that killed her went through her mind,
trying to override spells that shielded her mind from all vampires, save myself.
You will have those upon you soon enough. Since he could not see her mind,
finding out who she is and who she belonged to, he destroyed her.”
“And
who exactly was she?”
“My
assassin . . . my bed-mate . . . my most trusted friend out of the last seven
assassins I have had.”
“Is
that what you expect I’ll be? A bed-mate?”
“No.
I need you pure for a while yet.”
“And
then?”
His
face was apologetic. “I’ll have to make you vampire. I do not want to lose
another friend.”
“So
that your secrets stay secrets, so that you have someone who helps you bear the
burdens of those secrets.”
“That
is correct.”
“And
I’ll be your mate?”
“Only
if you wish to be. To tell you truth, I’m tired of losing those whom I have
shared a bed with for over ten years at a time. I’ve gotten to know them well,
gotten to see their smiles as they laughed, their tears as they cried, held them
through both . . . and I’m starting to wish for someone who will be with me
until it is time to go.”
He
didn’t reveal his feelings often, I felt. Always stoic around his pack, as it
were, and never said anything to reveal the lonely man inside. For he was still
man, deep under the vampiric facade, and man was never meant to live alone. He
was after an eternal mate, one who would not mind his dirty work, nor mind doing his
dirty work when it was required of her. I nodded, then said, “Train me.”
I
came to, seeing the stone floors. Groaning, I sat up, feeling Fanarael help me.
It was almost a year later. I was getting better with my training, but I still
got tossed around like a doll. With a sigh, the vampire picked me up and carried
me to a bed easily, then laying me back, and sitting beside me as my head
continued to throb. His smile was kind. “You have gotten much better. Maybe
I’ll let you train with Doraen for a little while more, until you can compete
with me.”
“I’m
only human,” I said hoarsely.
“And
I understand that, but you have to fight inhumanly in order to win
against those who are not human.”
He
leaned closer, sniffing my mouth. “And you haven’t been singing as much as
you are kissing someone.”
I
blushed, looking away. “So?”
“I
need your voice more than I need your weaponry or seduction
skills.”
“How
can kissing–”
“Your
mouth is not as untouched as the rest of you.”
“But
. . .”
“You
like this boy.”
“Yeah.”
Fanarael
brushed my hair away from my face, then kissed my forehead lightly, tenderly. He
rested his cheek against my own, and I whispered, “I can’t be with him, can
I.”
His
head shook slightly.
“Because
he can never know what I am turning into.”
“What
are you turning into, my dear?”
“A
killer.”
His
face pulled away, satiny hair cascading over bare, muscled shoulders. “No.
Never a killer. An undercover assassin, yes, but never a killer.”
“It’s
still the same to me. And you haven’t told me how many people you want
dead.”
“No
more than what you can handle.”
“Tell
me, Fanarael.”
“I
will, but not yet. You have to wait just a bit longer.”
“When
will I know?”
His
eyes silenced me, and he leaned his face closer to mine, until our lips were
scant millimeters away from each other. His breath was warm. “Tomorrow.”
The
next day came. I trained with Doraen for two hours straight, then went to shower
off. Once as dry as I could get, I walked into Fanarael’s study, still
toweling at my hair. He looked up as I entered, and smiled. “Your first
assassination is tonight.”
“Great.
Where?”
“Here.”
“How
so?”
“I
will say that I have entertainment for a certain adversary. You will either be
in the hidden room or outside, whichever you prefer, and Doraen in his wolfman
form will be behind the double doors, or beside you, in case our visitor decides
to try to either escape or kill you. His pack will be within the house to help
with keeping them contained. I will leave with their assumption that I am
preparing them something to drink.”
“Something
being blood, I assume?”
“Sharp
as ever, loveling.”
“Not
the right nickname, fang-face,” I said, smiling partially at his amused face.
“So what from there?”
“I’ll
actually leave the premises with a few of my protectors, and will return only
when Doraen tells me that it is safe.”
“What
will I sing?”
He
smiled, and handed me sheet music. “Go outside under the full moon. Sing.
Practice. Doraen may hear you without being in pain, as he is still mortal,
still . . . good. Not evil. He will guard you. You have three hours.”
I
took the music, reading it as I walked out. The boy-vampire, Hyeth, now
respected me, as I had shown him that I can counter his “attacks” easily at
this point, and looked up to me like an older sister. I found out that he was
actually a descendant of Fanarael, from before the vampire was vampire. He fell
into step beside me just as I hummed a first note. He yelped, holding his hands
to his ears. I dropped the sheets, and gathered him into an embrace, feeling him
tremble. “Hyeth, I’m sorry. I didn’t notice you. Are you all right?”
His
head nodded, and he trembled again. “I shoulda warned you.”
“Yeah,
you should have,” Doraen grumbled. “Even I have learned to let
her know that I’m behind her at times.”
“I
. . . I’d like to hear you sing sometime,” Hyeth said, sighing, finally at
ease again. He had some pretty fast recovery powers, even for a
blood-sucker. “And I know that it hurt me, but . . . your voice is so
beautiful.”
I
looked down into his open eyes, seeing his sadness there. He had been on the
verge of death when his parents had looked into finding their long-lost relative
. . . and then they had him changed into something that would give children
night-horrors. All they wanted was their little boy to live. And when he woke up
from his coma . . . he didn’t want to be a vamp. He didn’t want to live
forever. All he wanted was a normal life.
But
for thirty years he’s been a child.
I
saw Fanarael watching me as I still rested my arms around the boy-vampire’s
shoulders. His voice was soft in my mind. When this is all over, he’s going
to meet with his parents.
When?
I replied. I had learned how to direct my thoughts like they had. When will
that be? He hurts, Fanarael. Deep-down he hurts. He doesn’t want to be
immortal. You know that he never did.
Soon.
Tell him that. He wants to see them. He wants to tell them what he wants. And he
wants a true death.
I
swallowed. And I can give that to him.
Yes.
Soon.
Soon,
my kitten. Soon.
I
looked up at Fanarael, watching his pale eyes. And nodded. That was the right
nickname, Rael. That was the right one.
I
sang.
I
heard their screams.
I
kept singing.
Anguish
. . .
Furred
hands holding my upper arms kept me still, kept me from stopping the song. I
knew the end chorus anyway, and I dropped the sheets to rest my hands upon those
large, furred ones. After an eternity, Fanarael walked up to us. I felt him, but
I was weeping into Doraen’s shoulder, as he stayed in his larger form, making
sure that I felt safe as he embraced me.
Then
Fanarael’s hands rested upon my shoulders. “You don’t have to do this.”
“They
were killers. I weep for those that they had . . . that they had
sacrificed for their own evil whims.” I looked at my . . . at the once-man
before me. “Are you the same? Have you killed for the pleasure of killing?”
He
looked away. “I wish that I could tell you ‘no,’ sweet kitten. But I was
young once, and brash in how I managed myself. I thought that I was completely
immortal. I’ve killed for the sake of killing.”
“How
many, you fiend. How many.”
“Seven.”
“Only?”
“Never
‘only,’ and you know that,” Fanarael sighed. “You of all people should
know that.”
“They’ve
killed ten times that number. Each.” I swallowed, then saw him turn away from
me. As he started to walk away, I lurched out of the lycanthrope’s arms and
wrapped my own arms around the vampire’s waist. “I don’t want to know
about them. I saw into those monsters’ minds, and . . . I saw how they
had killed. When. Why.” I sighed into his silken shirt. “And I don’t want
to make myself leave you.”
He
turned slowly, so that he could rest his arms around my shoulders, pulling my
head against a chest within which a heart still beat. His voice was soft. “Why
is that?”
“Because
I have a reason,” I whispered. “And you’re not evil. You’re not evil.”
His
sigh was warm, if you can even describe a sigh as such. I knew he was smiling.
“Kitten, thank you.”
“For
what?”
“Believing
in me.”
You’re
going to let your nephew finally pass on.
I
feel horrible, however. I wish that I didn’t need him.
For
what? I asked
silently.
Company.
But
you have me.
His
answer was after a pause. True. That is true. His eyes met mine, and he
whispered, “I’ll send him out to you. I . . . I have to . . .”
“I
know,” I replied. “Go back to where you were. I don’t want to know where,
yet.”
“Thank
you.”
We
released each other, and soon I was looking down at the blue eyes of Hyeth.
“Tell me, little brother, why you’ve managed not to let yourself get killed
by hunters?”
“I
need permission from my master to die,” his voice said.
“You
have it now,” I whispered. “Let me sing to you.”
His
face lit up, and he wrapped his arms around my chest, the highest they could
reach. And I sang to him.
This
heart of mine is grieving
And
I cannot see the onward path
For
soon you shall be leaving
Marching
off to your fate . . . possibly death
His
sigh came softly as he trembled slightly, his arms tightening slightly, then
releasing their pressure as he remembered that I needed breath to sing.
When
you turn around and receive me
As
if nothing has ever happened
When
you come home from over the seas
My
heart alone is yours to defend
Hyeth’s
knees collapsed, and I lowered him slowly to the ground, feeling tears start to
well up in my eyes. They mustn’t reach my voice! I could sing around
them! I will! If only to . . . to send him on his way easily.
Turn
back around
See
the colors anew
The
sun is out, green is the ground
Let
that sadness diffuse within you
Don’t
look over your shoulder
And
think that only shadows live there
For
in your eyes, my beholder
I
know that you always will care
His
breathing slowed gradually, his eyes closing softly as he relaxed within my
arms, half upon my lap. I held him tighter to me, watching his face.
Long
have I waited to hear you
Letters
back to me aren’t satisfying anymore
My
love for you has kept true
Has
your face just become a thing of lore?
“Thank
you, Ara. Thank you . . . for singing . . .”
But
no, look to your side
And
there I will always stay
Within
you, your feeling should never hide
And
when you show your love, never delay
“Thank
you for asking him to let me go . . .”
And
then he was gone.
Turn
back around
See
the colors anew
The
sun is out, green is the ground
Let
that sadness diffuse within you
Don’t
look over your shoulder
And
think that only shadows live there
For
in your eyes, my beholder
I
know that you always will care
I
let the last note fade into the darkness of the sky, looking up at the full
moon, hearing the lonely and eerie cry of a wolf who had just lost a close
pack-member. More howls joined it, not all of them canine, and soon I was
surrounded by a pack of lycanthropes, not all of them wolves. Some cats, mainly
the big cats, were prowling closer, watching me.
It
was one of them that roared in my mind, You killed him! I’ll hand your
heart and head to Fanarael for this!
He
pounced, but was batted away carelessly by Doraen. Enough! Fanarael . . . our
master decreed that it was time. The dark muzzle lowered, and Doraen fell to
all fours, walking back to stand over me, letting the side of his face brush
against mine. And I . . . I oversaw it. Ara is our new assassin; your
leader.
“I
call her ‘kitten,’ and she will command you well,” a heartbroken voice
whispered weakly. I looked to see Fanarael limping closer. A wolf-woman held her
paw out for him to take, helping him closer. He wrapped his arms around myself
and the body of his nephew. “I had to hear your voice. I had to.”
“You
. . . you aren’t going to . . . to leave us, are you?” I whispered
fearfully.
He
smiled, shaking his head. “No. But I need to sleep for a few days. Never fear,
my love, my kitten. You will . . . be guarded. Take Hyeth . . . no, his name was
Jordan when he was human. Take Jordan back to his family. Doraen will show you .
. . the way.”
I
caught him, too, as he fell against me, and cradled his head against mine for a
moment. Then, feeling movement, I looked up at the female lycanthrope who had
helped him closer. “Who are you?”
Jaqie.
I pledge to you, milady.
She bowed her head below mine. If Doraen loves you as a pack-sister, then I
will do so as well. Willingly. She sent a dark glare to the feline that
would have attacked me.
He
snorted. Let it be known that I will not. Until she proves
herself.
Hasn’t
she already?! She killed three vampires and their . . . personal accomplices.
And on top of that, she was the one who Fanarael had allowed the honor of
letting Hyeth finally pass on. You know that he was tormented by
being what he was. She
sighed, and then turned completely wolf in one strange moment, seeming to shed
skin and body mass with scratching and a small amount of writhing. Then, with a
small sigh, she curled around my back. I will accompany them to Master
Hyeth’s home.
And
we felines will take care of Master Fanarael, a female cheetah-like lycanthrope said softly, pausing before me
to gently push her forehead against mine, rubbing slightly as a real cat would.
I released my hold upon the vampire, feeling her pick him up and off of my side,
seeing the other felines coming in closer to me. Each either reached out a
paw-hand or got close enough to rub foreheads with me.
Then
it was the last one, the one who said he would take his time to know me. His
green eyes watched mine for a moment. At length, he reached his paw out. I
rested my palm upon his and said, “I hope that I will meet your standards
soon. Fanarael needs harmony among all of us, and I include myself in there.”
He
nodded once, then left me alone with the wolves. I reached up to rub at
Doraen’s chin. “Let’s get this boy home. I’ll get to know you lot on the
way. Fair?”
They
nodded solemnly, and started to lead the way through woodlands. We came out upon
a road, and I saw a car’s headlights in the distance. Two of the largest
wolf-men stood upon their hind legs, staring at the driver as he slowed and
stared back in clear astonishment. I had already been hidden in the bushes
beside the road, but I saw how they waited until the smallest wolf was across
the road before getting out of the way, walking into the darkness. The car
passed. We moved on.
I
knocked upon the door of the house. After a moment, a middle-aged woman opened
it. And saw who I held in my arms. She slammed the door, screeching, running
through the house. An angry grumble roared at her to silence and still herself,
and an old man opened the door again, seeing the little boy first, then me. His
blue eyes watered slightly as he strained them to look closely at my face, and
he motioned for me to enter, looking behind me and smiling. “Doraen, your new
pack-mate is pretty.”
The
wolf entered behind me, smiling in the lupine way by dropping his jaw and
panting lightly, watching the man. She’s my commander, Don Reguies. Master
had me find her.
“Here,
put my son on the couch, Miss,” Don Reguies said kindly. “And tell me who
and what you are.”
“Ara,”
I replied, doing as he said to, smiling at the peaceful face of the boy. “And
I am his new assassin, still unfledged in a sense.” My gaze turned itself to
see the woman staring at me fearfully. I sighed, looking to Don Reguies. “My
first kill was tonight. I helped him be rid of three monsters who would have
killed you for even blinking in their presence.”
“Uncle
is keeping his promise, then.”
“Sí,
señor,” I replied. “Even though I know nothing of what he is planning,
he has told me his promise.”
The
Spanish man smiled at the use of his language. “Thank you for letting me
know.” He looked at Hyeth . . . Jordan. “And why has he not awoken yet? It
is time for him to be awake.”
“No,
señor,” I whispered. “Jordan wanted to hear my voice. You must have
known that he never wanted to become . . . what he had become.”
“Yes,
I knew,” the man replied, his tone lamenting. “I knew that it was my son’s
time, but his mama wanted him to be with her. He was her last one, señorita.
And she wanted her baby to live. I just do not see how your voice comes into
it.”
I
looked at Doraen, who went to the door, silently ordering the weaker of his pack
away for a safe distance, then nosed the door shut. His glace to me was my cue.
I faced both of the adults, and sang the chorus of the song that Jordan had
ended his life with. “Something that’s in my voice cleansed all his sins,
his stains, everything. He’s with his mother for eternity for real, señor.”
The
woman came closer, whispering, “You never told me, Dad. Why didn’t
you tell me? You said he died.”
“We
will discuss this later,” the man replied. “When we are not taking up her
precious time.” His eyes turned upon me, unashamed of his tears. “You have
done my family a great service. Uncle already knows this. He cannot hear your
voice. And this I now understand. You, little miss, have a great task ahead of
you. A great decision to make.” He swallowed. “And only you will know
of if it is the right choice after all.”
I
nodded, then turned once more to reach over and brush the sandy blonde hair away
from the boy’s face. I leaned over him and kissed his forehead once. “The
wolves will keep guard over the home, señor.” My eyes found his again.
“As always, you are under your Uncle’s protection. Keep and Hold will be
with you. They said that you know who they are.”
“Yes,
I do know them,” he replied. “Please, invite them in when you leave.”
“Am
I welcome here again?”
His
smile was kind, dazzling, and as he embraced me, he whispered, “Always. I like
you, little Ara. You are brave, you do not mind what your companions look like,
only who they are inside. Not many humans are able to do so.” He let me
go, then whispered, “Go. Back to Uncle’s side. He needs you.”
I
nodded my head once at him, then left with Doraen. He formed the guard, and I
looked to the two largest lycanthropes, the ones who had stopped the car by
watching the driver. “The Señor requests you two inside.”
The
shifted to become pure wolves, still tall and large. Keep, the slightly-larger
of the two tan-ish wolves, came almost above my waist, and could lick my chin
without stretching too far. Which he did, laughing in the wolf-way, then
trotting up to the door. I looked at Doraen. “So what now?”
He smiled, and led the way home.